Unfamiliar Territory

My husband and I dated in college, then broke up for a handful of years before reuniting.  Getting back together was weird. He was the same, I was the same, yet we were both vastly different than we'd been when we'd called it quits.  I remember feeling something I can only describe as "unfamiliar familiarity" when we started dating again. We already knew so much about one another, but had so much more to say, so much more we wanted to experience together. Our rediscovery period was downright blissful.

That's how I felt when I opened the "compose" screen to write this post today.

Five short years ago, my blog was such a huge part of my life.  I posted at least four times a week, dreamed of moving from Blogger to a "real" platform, read dozens of blogs daily, and worked very hard to nuture the relationships I made online, especially with my tight-knit circle of like-minded mom bloggers.  Today, I got a surge of nervousness when I started to write.  The homescreen looked familiar, but my fingers fumbled and screwed up the password the first time I tried to sign in.  I wondered how to start. I typed, deleted, typed again.  I remember why I loved this so much. I'm sad I stopped doing it.

I have spent the past year redifining myself, learning what "normal" means again.  And I'm finally ready to talk about it. Nothing bad has kept me from writing, I've just been thinking a lot, maybe too much. I had forgotten how good it feels to peck out my thoughts on a keyboard and toss it up on the internet for everyone who cares to read it.

I remember now. And I like it.

Comments

[Frema]

I feel you, sister. I'm still going through my own discovery process, but I want to write through it, too. Excited to hear what you have to say!

[Alissa]

Yay! I have been sporadic at best over the past year or so. I'm so glad to have you back in my inbox. It always makes me happy to see a new post from you!!!

[Christy]

A few years ago I found a little internet mini-tribe and then and... we all marched off in different directions. But I always remember that there's a pack of soon-to-be six-year-olds out there who started a pretty good thing :).

I'm excited to hear what you've been up to.

[Trilby]

Welcome back! I'm excited to hear about the new you:)