For the past few months, whenever someone has asked me how old you are, I answer, "Almost 3." Then I catch myself and think, "What are you doing!!?!??!? Shu' up! Say he's 2 while there's still time!"
Three. THREE. It's such a big kid age. My first memories are from when I was three and they're pretty vivid. It's both exciting and scary to know that the things that happen to you from now on could conceivably stay with you for your entire life. I hope the memories that stick with you from this age are full of smiles, laughter, hugs, fun and comfort.
Three years ago today, your dad and I went to the movies. We walked because that's what you do in New York. (Ok, I waddled.) We had no idea how drastically our lives were about to change. We didn't even know you were a boy. I'm sometimes amazed by the fact that I carried you in my body for 9 months and didn't know you were YOU. I had no idea what your name would be, that you'd look exactly like your dad but have my expressions, no idea that you'd call me Sugar or that you'd carry around your monkey named Stu like he's a part of your body. I had no idea that in just three short years, our house would be taken over by Toy Story characters or that I could ever be this hopelessly in love with you.
I sometimes wonder aloud what in the world we did without you. Your dad answers that we slept later, watched more adult tv and purchased far less milk and juice. Then we both laugh and agree that a few hours less sleep, a few extra cartoons and some extra liquids in our fridge are a small price to pay if it means we get to live with you.
Tonight we will eat pizza and you'll finally get your Buzz and Woody cake. Sugar didn't do so well with her first attempt at using fondant, so it has chocolate frosting. Something tells me you won't mind. We'll light your candles, sing Happy Birthday and watch you make a wish. My wish is that you always know how very much you are loved and how blessed I am to be your mom. And also that you start using the potty consistently.
Enjoy your last couple of days as a two-year old, Deano. You're gonna rock three.